786sufiwisdom

Eye have come to the realization that ; eye am a Traveler on a up hill journey alone. There is only actually Allah(swa) who is with me. Eye did not realize how alone Eye really was , Until eye put my trust in my marriage,because eye thought knowing Allah;(swa) meant being a gud wife & supporting my spouse to try and please him was what wud be pleasing in tha sight of Allah. Now there is a Big Empty Void that has yet to be filled in my life because Eye shudder put more emphasis on tha creator of all things & not loose focus of my true purpose in life. Serving & worshipping ALLAH; thAt is the my purpose in this life, not just trying to be a good wife & Umi to my children , & my husbands children who eye Embraced as my own. 12+yrs. time invested in. A void marriage. Now husband has chosen another sister & and abandon me in a town where I have no family,but he does , refuses to set me free by Iddat. There is a empty void in my soul. Eye feel that eye must return back on the journey eye was on before eye got married. I was alone without a husband for several years, eye was focused, motivated,& dedicated to learning more & more. about the life of a true believer in Islam &my goal to seek the knowledge of a The pathway to Sufism. My cup is less than half full.eye trying to re-fill my cup so eye can drink and never have thirst again. Eye may feel empty now, & somewhat alone; eye believe Allah (swA)will have mercy on me for the good eye have done. Constantly seeking his forgiveness for. Sins eye am aware of & those that eye may not be aware of. On a journey traveling ,Soul Searching; being careful for those rocks. & glass that may be thrown in my pathway. Never to be Angry, maybe disappointed, I doforgive all , sometimes so hard to forget though. Not afraid to travel on this journey alone. Allah (swa) is with me; who better to travel with? Inshallah In constant research for the remedy, the Mathlabul Chafii is my Cure for my Pain,& Sorrows;& medical illness of PNES; in which has improved ; especially the Aphasia eye was stricken with for about a year or more; Allah Praise Is Due To Allah (swa) For his Resources for the Remedy . Ameen ya Rabil Alameen*) Allah Hu Akar *) Jazallah Big Brotha Sailou! May Allah continue to guid us on our Journey & Path as we continue to travel ; Thus with with the safety & Protection of Allah (swa) ; ISLAMISM is tha way for my in route towards to tha true path of Sufism.